Today has been fine... although suffered from a lack of sleep... slept at like 1+ yesterday... den woke up at 7+ this morning.. so it was practically about 6 hrs of sleep... anyway played for yf again... and the same song.. all day.. gosh really screwed up this time... in the middle of the song suddenly couldnt play at all.. my fingers were all cramp.... haha.. yeah.. den after awhile i continued playing... so yeah... after that went for bible study... den went for service... and their sub-wolfer is nice.. haha... can really hear the bass and drummer... haha...well.. after that stayed for WA... yeah... was fun though... haha.. went for vocals... haha... calass was ok.. quite fun... yeah.. after that... went to the yf room.. and used afew MP3 players and pulg it into the sound systems.... haha.. yeah.. stay there for like hmm... 1 hr? yeah.. haha.. jon ng, david wong, mitchell, kah jun and i were like soo hyper... haha... yeah.. it was a really good time.. could like just forget all my troubles.. and all my pain... yeah... and den i headed home...

I started to think... reflect... and i recalled.. and i realised that what jon said was true... i tend to get upset when i'm at home... and reflecting and thinkin... mann... den i started to think about how much time we managed to spend with each other and i realised that its really very little or none at all duin a week... i noe ur very busy.. but i'm sure there is a time that we can just talk right? maybe its just God's will ... i'm not certain.. but... i cant do anything now..whenever i get home.. i'll start to feel very depressed cuz i keep thinkkin of my life.. i keep reflecting... haiz... how i wish we were just normal... like other ppl.. but what can i do? what can i do? nothing... i feel so useless.... not being able to do anything..I've been quite short-tempered today... haiz.. maybe its just because i'm depressed... i mean... yeah... haiz... sorry... i wish i could just spend time with u.. but it all seems impossible... it all seems impossible...



pushing on..