My parents really think i have so much time in the world... but have they even realised that my days are so packed with various activities... don't they even know that i am under tremendous pressure and stress... and yet... they say that i have no stress whatsoever... they think i have so much time in the world.. but have they ever thought y i even have to struggle with my homework i the night... NO... they dun.. cuz they always think that i play in the afternoon... and i'm sick of it... i dun even get time for myself... didnt even do QT this week... after the long day... i fall into bed and sleep... and yet they still dun understand me...they dun think i'm tired or stressed... what am i suppose to do to prove them wrong? am i suppose to go insane and proven to them by a doctor that i have suffered stress and have gone insane? They don't even think that i am tired after a day of school and cca... they think that they are the only ones having stress and are tired... they always ask me not to compare with other students but they compare me with other students... arent they contridicting themselves... and yet... when they scold me... and i try to reson out with them... they think i'm talking back at them.. so i've given up on the hope... i've given up.. when they scold me... i'll just go with them... i wun reason out with them... they think they know me but they don't... i'm tired of havin to reason with them and get more scolding.. so whenever they scold me... i'll just shut my mouth... and let them scold me until they are happy...

I'm sick of the way i live... i'm sick of the things that are happening to me... i'm sick of my parents not understanding me.. i'm sick of my life... why do i always have to be the one getting all of this? why cant i just be like other students... living happily, parents who understand them most of the time... and even their lives are much better than mine... mine is filled with tuitions,school,cca peer pressure... homework... and much more.. and i've tried not to give up but not now... not anymore... whats the reason for me living? i'm still trying to answer that question... when things are always not goin my way.. when things just seem so wrong... when things just seem like its the impossible and when u have to go through them even when ur mentally and physically tired... when i'm on the verge of breaking down... i am being pushed to work harder instead of rest... when its time to relax, i'm being nagged to study... there doesnt seem to be a moment where i can just live the way i want to... where i can just rest without things to worry about.. where i can just leave everything behind without any people to nag or push me to study...